ADDICTION...(Rewrite)....

Addiction

As flames slowly expire and embers fly silently

The cold darkness approaches me steadily

and much like a child afraid of the night

I need you to be my light

To brighten the road that twists and winds

as I travel with you, I'll be fine

'Tis when special moments are known

 and in lifes' winds silently blown

to gratefully fill my sails under skies blue

that you become my steady wind so true

You are the soft breeze messing my hair

You are the comfort always there

and just like a flower needs rain

I need your presence and love it contains

During my voyage on life's raging seas

drenched with love unleashed in ecstasy

in ageless times sunshine filled

I need you till my spirit is stilled

and like a prayer in deaths darkness

I need you there during my eternal rest

71 SHADES of GRAY...

71 Shades of Gray

The welcoming portal of copious years

Openly mocks my immortality wrapped in silver hair

and beckons my gray looming shadow

to consign itself to fading slowly into tomorrow

To quietly entertain obvious uselessness 

Like the sporadic breeze whispering nothingness

Shades of advanced age, I've been told

is the crushing burden of being old

But my life awake is now sweeter

Than my youthful dreams reluctantly cast asunder

and with conjured hope of future realities

in Years new, I seek to recant mortality

While comfort is found in reclaimed rapture

within the consort of family and friendships nurtured

 all sustaining my mission to not fade

quietly into the darkness and accept fate

but to relish in pleasures that love begets

and forcefully reject the discomforts of life during sunset

SALIENCE......

Salience

I perceive wind blown wheat fields

where the air runs wild

I see patterns dance in semi-sleep 

their motion slow and immersed in light

I see an army of shadows march on mountainside

as birch trees stand erect in their whiteness

beneath the billowy mass where they hide

and bring their magic to a dark forest

Their royal summits of gold

send windblown leaves to the ground

in a deluge precious and bold

that instantly covers the frost there found

Wild winds whistle their tune profound

among the fallen gold resting under blue heaven

and there, mindful substance is found

in a precious gift from nature given

I see the broad wing hawk in air

circling silently in flight rising

as it ascends on invisible stairs

until it becomes a dot wandering

I see,in the distance, misty gray

as storm clouds draw my attention

I notice smoky blue hills far away

and lightning streaks in Natures mansion

Rain filled winds in advancing descent

ripple lake waters once glassy

and I wait patiently for the torrent

To conjure a rainy day melody

Today, I gratefully noticed

sights to cherish and personally know

while nature shouted all this

Upon my conscious mindful glow

SUICIDE.......

Suicide

He stood alone on the edge of decision

Wanting to show the world his final expression

On the shaky ledge of man made structure

the fading sunlight exposed masonry's architecture

Somehow, from his perch refusing to accept sanity

he sadly felt his upcoming destiny

Below, a crowd gathered, milling around

Pleading for him to come down

But of all things he hated with certainty

was the shimmering lights of this city

Indecision and confusion forced him to wait

for his towering dive to the pearly gates

The setting sun painted reddish bands

on his body and outstretched hands

as the ocean breeze, fresh and brisk

blew across his face like a death kiss

Then, with hesitation, in a senseless pause

he closed his eyes and shut out crowd noise

releasing himself to gravity

settling the moment of his ceasing to be

Falling, falling, feeling nothing and yet

Waiting for this moment to regret

MIDNIGHT CATFIGHT...

Midnight Catfight

In the middle of a quiet night

under the umbrella of twinkling stars above

The clamour of a feline fight

Interrupted the sleep I love

The hostile encounter made me wonder

about this drama of the hour

It led me to silently ponder

the reason for this cats' screwy behavior

Within a short time, I suddenly realized

while overcome with sleepless jealousy

That the night suits a tomcats eyes

and the darkness is its territory

Now awake, I searched the limpid darkness

my nocturnal quest lacking vision

my guts feeling the  emptiness

as eternity crept into my disposition

I attempted to capture nothingness visualized

to dilute darkness with shades of gray

as limited input from my useless eyes

Impregnated my imagination this day

Unfocused impressions semi-crystallized 

rose from the depths of the infinite

I tried to construct reality idealized

during the mental strangeness of all of it

The moment difficult to grasp

while enveloped in somber screams and hisses

This concept of eternal existence ever last

that lives within the darkest kisses

Then, as if by visual magic

spikes and shafts of blinding light

rendered this night way too tragic

causing the felines to relinquish the fight

The receding darkness melted into reality

shades of color burst forth dramatically

satiating my questioning humanity

as it released it from this midnight fantasy